My 23rd birthday content was quite rudely abandoned by yet another B3313 drama; and this is with twice the work, back when I wanted projects and personal developments on the same day.
If nothing else, then the watch time statistics on the 22 video are very clear that they should not have been merged together like that in the first place.
It came across as rudely inserting myself into the matter of my projects, and therefore, the two are now, since 2026, cleanly split: the two existing YouTube channels (personal, projects) with their own yearly releases; 6 months apart.
Actually focusing on the subject matter allows for much better insights, so I have also documented the content of the 22nd birthday — gaining independence with Copper's help.
It would have been less of a mess if I did even a fraction of the self-reflection I do now. But that is also the point of this journey: I started doing these to learn to self-reflect. (And you, the readers, get some content out of it!)
Introduction
Finishing driving school was a minor event between 2024–2025 Octobers, which had some more exciting stuff in store for later: catgirls. (And also other creatures.)
Blindness
Humans, like other animals evolved in the wild, have a primal desire to form up, and to then defend the group(s) from attackers.
Humans are unique from other animals, though, with a mind complex enough for independent introspection; the ability to share internal ideas; to receive and partially experience these ideas through, say, this document. By doing so, we have been able to build off of our ancestors' work and keep advancing ahead.
... 'we' refers to a minority of the population. The majority, unfortunately, simply receive answers to every question through various sources, without any personal thought. A few centralized, sometimes interconnected sources decide for the majority:
- goals in life (upper class: play ball, control everything. lower class: live a 'respectful' life for the upper class);
- norms: what is acceptable; what is weird; and what is downright horrible;
- the entire mechanism through which they should love and care for each other;
- and much, much more.
Those who achieve various degrees of success do not do it by working harder, and maybe not even through working smarter: but rather by finding and sticking to an independent goal, distracted by nobody and nothing.
Some true success stories in my perspective include, and you could probably name ones you know:
- Valve (Gabe Newell): a video game platform, Steam, that continues to demolish the competition by simply respecting its gamers.
- Linus Torvalds: the Linux kernel, where principles of technical progress, of simply less bad software are strongly upheld.
- Toby Fox: funny Undertale & Deltarune.
- Technoblade: Minecraft YouTube guy beloved for being himself: simply good at the game.
Unfortunately, propaganda would rather you speak ill especially of the first two, and instead treat Microslop as a success story.
Yes, that same Microslop that only exists today thanks to blatantly anti-competitive measures with PC manufacturers and sellers, education, etc., sometimes even getting in legal trouble.
That Microslop that themselves participate in the mass propaganda. The Halloween documents are only the tip of the iceberg.
That Microslop that's... okay, you get the point. They are intentionally malicious, and have been turning tech into something that seems alien and out of user control, and should only be managed by those who 'know how'.
They basically just steal Linux features, sometimes decades later, and call it innovation.
... how about no.
The Meow
Either way, let us get to the me part of my document: the cat ears :3
I have a long history with humans being selfish creatures, thick in their own hubris and belief that everything they do and say is right, and others' views are inferior. Not listening to others; lying, dehumanizing and abusing to get what they want.
Meanwhile, cats would just... cat.
It was already decided long ago: I have identified as cat for a really long time, even if it wasn't entirely purposeful. Somehow I still have these things from almost a decade ago.
On the other hand, I can now tell you why I cat: the strong, inherent avoidance of and disgust for pretense, for traitors; for humans' mysterious behavior. Resiliance to manipulation and abuse; the individuality that now allows me to function with others.
That's right. Too bad; as I've noticed, a team where the only purpose is to 'contribute to the team' is not creative or productive, and will simply hinder progress by depending on each other and nobody making any real progress.
The cat thing I was missing, but that I am fully taking up now is I will hiss at and bite threats. No hard feelings, but maybe try not assaulting me for no reason.
Try telling me it's not going to work, that I'm going to stay lonely like this: as if you aren't just describing yourself and projecting your own problems to someone else again~
I've already got people I love and trust; I reallllly wonder who wins the competition...
A lack of independence creates problems
I happened to spawn in the worst country for it apparently: Hungary. I swear the people here can not stop begging me to pay attention to their dumb nonsense, and calling me mentally disabled if I don't.
These people have apparently infinite energy, and zero standards whatsoever. No wonder Viktor Orbán's rule lasted a whole 16 years.
It is them who complain about relationship problems; about school and work feeling tiring and meaningless; about Microsoft and tech being a pain. Or just about each other.
Me, who naturally avoided all of that? Who, instead of whining like a baby, implemented a better solution every time? All I have to say is: skill issue :3
The 2025 B3313 drama that evidently delayed this document was also caused by a lack of independence; it wouldn't have happened if I didn't decide to 'serve the community'. That was weak and horrible management on my part, and the community found a way to dethrone us.
Well, more accurately, Copper — the true cat in the room is the one who did it ultimately. She was not there to serve anybody like the community was 'supposed' to be 'handled'.
Her actions were an important lesson on trust: of her, and of everybody.
She was very understandably tired of me relying on her for everything. Shortly after this incident, she actually dipped, leaving this message on her page, leaving me to my own:
I have to respect the silly method; but more importantly I am thankful for the 3 years of support that did eventually end with me straight on my path: to serve nobody's interests but mine.
It's time to stop
Stop acting for others' interests.
After you finish reading through this document, I do not want to see you take a single action because somebody else told you to. Because it would be 'cool' in the group or whatever. You shall not fold to peer pressure ever again.
The ones who consistently perform well are those who do not let themselves fall to manipulation in the face of even the worst torture possible.
But most importantly: do not change because you heard from me that you would 'perform well'; because then you end up in the same exact situation again. Go only for your own calling.
Quit serving the people. Doing so gives them power over your life you do not want abused.
My evil cats have been deployed to your location and will be watching how you do. Good luck.
